this morning i woke up from a dream that i was in istanbul. a few friends and i had gone there from dakar for the evening (remember its a dream) and i decided to roam the streets with one of them, feeling completely at home in istanbul. in my dream, i knew i had to…
last night i had a dream that I was back in the states. everyone around me was white. and i was confused. i kept asking myself, who are all these tubaabs? what are they doing here? what is going on? then i realized i was back in America, and i was grieving because of it….
i have been witness a grand melange of emotions since i last posted. for the most part, i am experiencing this bizarre feeling that strangely resembles non-existence. in wolof, being asked how you are, the response is “mangi fi rekk” or “i am here only” and i find that this suits me very well. it…
being that all my recent blogs have erred on the side of pessimism, and that i have spent three days in misery- sick as a dog who has an intestinal infection, i wanted to share an excerpt from my journal that i wrote on the fifth of july. and i quote: “i have had so…
“my restless heart which nothing finite can satisfy” this morning, as i read through a prayer that someone very wise had written, i read this line and was immediately reminded of my own heart. i have recognized for years that there is nothing finite, nothing mortal, nothing visible, tangible, touchable, that can satisfy my heart…
Tahni – I think I could type for an hour touching on all the things in this post. But for now I will tell you that I understand the kinds of thoughts that you are having and we can talk a lot when you get back.
I know with the start of school, you won’t have much time to aclimate to life in the states again, but I know that you will never regret that you made this trip. God has used it in ways that you can’t imagine or see right now. Sharpening you and wearing away edges…the things we need to grow with Him.
I love you and we pray for you daily.